My personal trainer - Gilad :)

Yes, I finally have my very own personal trainer ;) His name is Gilad and we work out together everyday from 10:00 to 11:00. He comes to my house every morning via Fit TV :) He is in Hawaii and I am in what we call the Green Room. I lift weights, do cardio and lots of work on my abs. Hopefully over the next several weeks I will see a new me. I am tired of the fat face pictures. I am tired of two little girls poking my jelly roll around my belly. I want to be slim and trim again. I grew up being underweight or average most of my life. It wasn't until I married Chris that I actually started putting on weight. When I found out I was pregnant with Olivia I weighed 107 pounds after I delivered her I was 117. Today my drivers license says I am 120 ... Let's just say if I had a car accident and was unrecognizable and my driver's license were lying in the road the person at the scene would say this can't be her because the woman here is more than a 120 pounds :) I want to make my license true. lol I like Gilad's easy warm up, cardio blast, ab trimmer, and weight lifting. Once the workout is over there is an easy cool down and I am done. When he does an exercise that I don't like or has a commercial break, that is when I will simply run in place or do more sit ups. The thing I like about him is that he is free and I can exercise in the privacy of my home. Now don't get me wrong IF I could afford it I would love to go to the gym and have a real personal trainer. It would be nice to use all of that fancy equipment, but you don't need either to lose weight. ALL you need is a determination and that is what I have right now ( I might not have it in a week, but right now I do :) I started this two weeks ago and we'll see how it goes. Wish me luck. I haven't stepped on the scales since I started I am going to wait and be surprised ( hopefully a good surprise :).

Okay so this was all about ME today ... go figure???

I can't help but put in a word from the Lord from one of my favorite passages; Proverbs 31:17 "She girds herself with strength. And strengthens her arms." It is not a vanity that I care for my body, but rather a help to my family; to be strong to care for them and our household. Nice huh? God cares about every detail of our lives.

Be a blessing in word or deed.

God is good

Praise the Lord, since my last update there has been a pleasant change at our house. I've seen more sweet faces and less attitude. God is so faithful to help us if we'll only ask for guidance. Yesterday mom actually met me out and we shopped in two stores ( not much walking just pull up to a store and walk in) it was great!! I loved having her with me and getting her opinion. I was in need of some new shirts and took 6 in the dressing room ... she helped me choose 3 out of 6 that looked "good". I love her honesty of the ones that fit and her laughing with me about the ones that didn't fit :=)

So I am praising God for His goodness. Yes there are days of valleys, but I love those mountain top days :)

Off to worship. I love Sunday services.

Go be a blessing ...

Come to Jesus

Today I want to share the lyrics to a song that really gave me comfort when I heard it last night. It's an older song that you may have heard on Christian radio. It's called Come to Jesus. I do not know who wrote it, but it says performed by Chris Rice.

Weak and wounded sinner

Lost and left to die

O, raise your head, for love is passing by

Come to Jesus

Come to Jesus

Come to Jesus and live!

Now your burden's lifted

And carried far away

And precious blood has washed away

the stain, so

Sing to Jesus

Sing to Jesus

Sing to Jesus and live!

And like a newborn baby

Don't be afraid to crawl

And remember when you walk

Sometimes we fall...so

Fall on Jesus

Fall on Jesus

Fall on Jesus and live!

Sometimes the way is lonely

And steep and filled with pain

So if your sky is dark and pours the rain, then

Cry to Jesus

Cry to Jesus

Cry to Jesus and live!

O, and when the love spills over

And music fills the night

And when you can't contain your joy inside, then

Dance for Jesus

Dance for Jesus

Dance for Jesus and live!

And with your final heartbeat

Kiss the world goodbye

Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side, and

Fly to Jesus

Fly to Jesus

Fly to Jesus and live!

I've had a really stressful week with some new challenges (Satan is attacking). Pray a hedge of protection for my family and me. My mom is in terrible pain and the doctor's don't seem to be doing enough for her. She has another test in 2 weeks. My foster child has begun showing a side that is new to me. When she gets upset because she is being corrected she puts on a very "straight/stiff" face and doesn't say a word to me. She can hold that very unpleasant expression for 30 minutes. The first time this happened we talked through the issue and her pretty smile came back quickly. It happened once and then a week passed before I saw that "look" again .... now I am seeing that face 2 and 3 times a day. I would rather she yell or cry or show some type of emotion, but no this is what I am dealing with. Totally new territory for me. BUT my God is a BIG God and He will help me as I daily draw from His word for guidance. Being a foster parent is tough!!! Don't get me wrong I am not complaining; I am being REAL and honest. I love T and I am glad she is here and that we can help her. I am planning her birthday party and working on her Christmas list. I treat her just like my own daughter ( other than the fact that we can't spank foster kids) for obvious reasons. She is who she is and I can sense alot of growth since she's come to live with us. She enjoys church and her friends. She loves to help me in the yard with weeding and watering flowers. She loves to play anything with Olivia. She doesn't see Chris much since he works late, but she calls him daddy and always tells him to have sweet dreams. She is working hard in school and just won a Terrific Kid award. She is a terrific kid who needs a few more hugs and a lot of love.

Olivia has adjusted well and seems to enjoy having a little sister. One night I went to the nursing home to take my grandmother some clean clothes and sweets. It was T's bath time and Olivia called to let me know she had fixed a bubble bath for her and was helping me out. I was so happy. I am very proud of Olivia and how well she is sharing her toys, books and us. She and I are getting our home school done, but it it tough with many interruptions. Our DSS caseworker was here 3 hours the other day. The guardian ad litum is coming this week, more appointments next week. Being a foster parent means your already busy schedule just got busier. Chris and I still leave each other love notes and hang out on the sofa for a bit at night. Life is full. Life is good. Pray for my mom please and pray for my family. Satan is attacking, but praise God I am on the winning team.

Go be a blessing.